got disconnected

I know, I know, it's been forever since I last posted, but I was distracted...there's this girl who's got me busy...I can't believe all the things I'm doing for her. Like now, I am killing time at the airport, waiting for my flight to Calgary (where she's from). It's 3:36 am and I haven't slept at all. I decided to fly and see her 2 hours ago and here I am now, after the girl whom, I hope, will be the one...I've never done anything like this in my life. I always took "calculated risks", but with her I am breaking my own rules and I can't seem to find my rational self. My heart has completely taken over and my mind can do nothing but to follow it.

This girl has captivated me in a way no one ever has. Not only do I have very strong feelings for her, but I am extremely attracted to her (which is rare). She makes me feel like everything is possible, but at the same time I feel like nothing I could ever do would be big enough or worthy of her. She thinks I'm the better person in our relationship, she thinks I could leave her any minute, but the truth is I couldn't leave her even if I tried. I played hard to get for a while, I didn't want to be too easy, but she found her way to my heart and hasn't left since. I miss her when I'm not with her, I long to hear her voice and be around her...I just need her so much.

Things are not always easy for us, but at the end of the day we understand each other and know we want to be together no matter what. I haven't felt this happy in years...